2. SHE DOESN'T WANT ME JUST GOING THROUGH THE MOTIONS OF MY LIFE...
3. ...WORKING, JOGGING, MAKING LOVE WITH MY GIRLFRIEND AT NIGHT.
5. SHE WANTS MORE FROM ME. SHE WANTS MORE FOR ME.
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1. At the pool party she challenged me to live each day like it was my last.
2. I sink down onto the bed with the letter in my hands.
3. I want to yell at her, tell her that it's not that easy to do.
4. The truth is I
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1. Have no idea how to go about it.
2. All my life I've lived to please others.
3. Since I was a child I've been playing the ideal daughter
4. I kept good grades and never gave my parents a reason to worry...
5. They didn't need any additional stress in their lives.
6. I was a great daughter, a good person.
1. Polite, well-mannered, everything I was supposed to be.
2. Selling myself at the auction was the craziest thing I've ever done, and even that wasn't for me.
3. Dammit, mom.
4. I had impossible conversations with myself this afternoon, trying to figure out what she wants from me.
5. Sky-diving? Bungee-jumping? What?
6. And then it hits me.
7. She never wanted me to do something crazy just for the adrenalin rush. All she wanted was for me to be happy.
8. I'm getting there!
9. But...
10. God, I feel like I'm losing it.
11. I check the clock. One more hour until kir is home.
12. One hour to come up with something to do tonight to prove to myself that I can do this whole living life to the fullest thing.
1. On the drive home from work, my thoughts drift to jiyeon.
2. I don't know how I was lucky enough to go home with jiyeon that night...
3. But over the course of the past several months...
4. ...I've been thankful for that fact countless times.
5. She saved me from a bitter and lonely existence.
6. And now I'm taking care of her through the hardest part of her life.
1. But I see her progress little by little each day.
2. I'm helping her to live again and remind her often that it's what her mom would have wanted.
3. I try my best to make her days brighter...
4. ...surprising her with different gifts every week.
1. ...and every time the smile in her eyes when she finds them makes my chest tighten.
2. "Another surprise? Thank you, baby~! I love them!"
3. I see her strength every time she laces up her running shoes...
4. ...every time she cooks for me...
5. ...in every smile, in every laugh I can feel her bravery.
6. "I cooked too much tonight! We can share it with the staff!"
1. She's choosing to live.
2. Of course, some days are still hard.
3. Some days her eyes are puffy from crying when I return home from work...
4. ...and it breaks my heart.
5. But little by little, I'm getting my sweet jiyeon back.
1. "Uh? What's going on?"
2. But tonight...
3. Tonight is the best.
4. "Ji..yeon..."
