1. I look down at my bikini clad chest, making sure that everything's covered. It is. Thank god.
1. "Here, cover up, sweetness."
2. "I'm not wearing a towel. I'm trying to get a tan."
1. Kir bites her lip, stewing, but she lets it go.
2. "Let's go back to the yacht."
1. We're spending a perfect day on kir's dad's yacht, and I have to admit, I feel like a bit of goddess.
2. All kir's attention is on me.
1. She has been very attentive, helping me board the boat.
2. Bringing me champagne, rubbing sunscreen onto my shoulders, and providing me with endless amusement.
1. My mom would want me to be happy, so I push the dark, somber thoughts away and focus on the good in my life.
2. The sun is shining brightly overhead.
3. Making my diamond engagement ring sparkle and glitter in the light.
1. I hold out my hand, admiring it in the sun.
1. And kir's answering smile is bright enough to light up a room.
2. The day she slipped it onto my finger was one the happiest of my life.
3. Three years ago has been the hardest of my life, but I'd worked through all seven stages of grief. Denial. Pain. Anger.
1. And now I've reached acceptance, though in my darkest hours, I never thought this day would come.
2. Maybe I just never wanted it come. Never wanted to reach the place where I accepted her loss.
1. It's been a rocky healing process, but I've been stitched together by kir's love.
2. God had a plan all along.
1. He knew she was going to call my mom home, and brought me to kir in the most unlikely of places.
2. I know the ache will never go away, but I've begun to heal.
3. To actually live again, rather than just going through the motions.
1. And that the change in me is mostly due to the beautiful woman beside me and the two little creatures we created three years ago.
