1. "..."
2. "I received a lot of counseling when I was younger."
3. "Even though my mom is a very shy person..."
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1. "...and going to places like that used to be frowned upon back then."
2. I didn't care even when my pet died.
3. I didn't know how far I could
1. Go when I got angry.
2. In movies these days, they would explain it using all sorts of cool words, but...
3. ...from the parent's point of view, when they first see their children acting like that...
4. ...it just looks like retardation or autism.
5. My child lacks something. Just... For no reason, even when I didn't do anything wrong.
6. "Can you tell the difference between education and training?"
1. "I needed training, and be it five years... Ten years..."
2. "I kept going at it, but I didn't improve much."
3. I had a teacher who would just read story books for me,
1. And when I was even younger, my mom would take my hand and make me pinch her...
2. ...and she would cry, "Ouch, ouch."
3. And that would scare me and make me sad...
4. ...so I would either frown or make a sad face.
5. Then my mom would smile for a moment in relief.
1. "Funny, isn't it? Whenever she did that, I didn't know what I was supposed to do..."
2. "...whether I should laugh along with her or if I should just stay frowning."
3. Why people laugh, why people cry...
4. ...there were always exceptions, no matter how much I tried to memorize.
1. People like you, sunbae, who know these things just by thinking about them, don't have to go through the trouble, but I...
2. "Ah, kim jaeyoung you crazy! I hate that! Ahaha-"
3. "Your vest is about to burst!"
4. ...I just couldn't know.
5. It was so difficult that I didn't even want to know about it, but I had to know.
6. And in the midst of all that...
7. Ballet was...
8. The closest thing
1. ...the closest thing to training that I had tried until then, so...
2. ...I felt comfortable with it from the start.
3. And because I was immediately good at it,
4. I saw that it relieved everyone who loved me all at once.
5. I also... Wanted to
1. Wanted to do it.
3. "Though I didn't know that I'd be doing it my whole life. But it turned out to be like this."
4. "Well whatever the start was, it's a good thing that you did. Since you're so good at it."
5. "Is that so? But it's not a practical talent, really..."
6. "Oh. It did help with my problem though."
1. "You know, since ballet is such an old art form..."
2. "...there's so much material that can be used as reference for dramatic emotional expressions."
3. Sadness is expressed like this, and joy is expressed like this...
4. ...and there are set mimes too.
5. "When I started thinking about it in terms of using different facial muscles depending on the situation..."
1. "...instead of relying on vague emotions..."
2. "...it definitely got easier."
3. "Some stupid interviewers even say that I'm good at expressing things sometimes."
4. "That I convey emotions so well. What in the world~?"
5. "I saw you turning around and covering your mouth to sneer when you heard them say that last time, sunbae."
1. "No, sorry, I was..."
2. "You don't have to make excuses. Even I think it's funny sometimes, but I just hold it back."
3. "..."
1. "Hahaha"
2. "Haha"
3. "Ha..."
4. Even that sensitive, unpredictable cha yoon...
5. ...who's the most emotional person in the world...
6. ...came to ask me about expressing emotions.
1. "It's really funny. That..."
2. While I was trying all my life to convincingly mimic other people's emotions...
3. ...that honest girl laughed when she wanted to laugh and cried when she wanted to cry...
4. ...that she still had such an innocent face.
1. Even until when we were 17...
2. ...understanding her was the most difficult thing.
3. "..."
4. I really couldn't understand anything, but I still loved her.
1. "Sunbae. It's not that I particularly hate you or that I've built a wall against you."
2. "I'd be happy to love you one day, if anything."
3. "Although that's probably impossible, no matter how much I want to."
4. "..."
1. "Why? You can't know something like that for sure."
2. "Well, it's not like I sat around doing nothing after cha yoon left."
3. "No one told me to do it, but I couldn't forget that happy feeling, so..."
1. "...I try to worry about everyone I meet. I try to love and pity them..."
2. "...I make that effort now."
3. "And sunbae, because you've been by my side for the longest time..."
4. "I've made up my mind."
1. "...I've made the most ardent effort for you."
2. "I probably put more effort with you than I did with yoon."
3. "But you never had to make an effort with her."
4. "...yeah."
5. "But if effort can count as love, then the person I loved the most is you, sunbae."
6. "..."
1. "So don't beg me. I'm already always begging myself, so..."
2. "...you don't have to do that as well."
3. "Han yoahn. So that's your conclusion right now? Telling me not to beg you?"
4. "Why'd you have to give me your coat then... What a trashy thing to do."
1. "..."
2. It's absurd... And frustrating.
3. Why do I still feel the same way when I've just heard all this...?