1. I woke up a long time ago but couldn't say a word...
2. It has been 30 minutes already...
3. What should I do? I must be crazy...
1. I should say yesterday was a mistake... Right?
1. Ha... How do I
2. "Joohee."
3. "Uh...!"
4. "Yesterday..."
1. "Uh, I-I...!"
2. "I...!"
1. "I did that without any feelings for you..."
1. At that time, I just couldn't think straight...
2. "..."
3. "Can we... Keep being friends?"
1. "Hey,"
2. "Anyone would think I confessed to you or something."
1. "I feel the same as you, you know?"
2. "It just happened that we got swept up in it."
1. "...r-really?.."
3. "Then, that's a relief..."
1. "But, it has already been done."
3. "Can we really..."
1. "Can we really pretend it never happened?"
2. "JOOHEE."
1. "Neither of us have real feelings for each other."
2. "Right?"
1. "So why not..."
2. "You know, just meet up when we're lonely?"
1. "What?... How can you say that...."
2. "Be honest. Wasn't it nice?"
1. "We can also stop whenever we want."
2. "Nobody's gonna get hurt."
1. "Unnie."
2. "Yeah."
1. "How do you want us to do skinship?"
2. "...skinship?"
1. "Yes. Since that day, we never talked about it."
1. "I thought... Even if our preferences don't match, we're still in a relationship."
2. "It could happen naturally."
3. "We can take turns."
4. "Unnie..."
1. "But maybe you don't think that way...."
2. "That's why when you suddenly got so serious about it..."
3. "It bothered me."
1. "Sorry,"
1. "But I really don't want to change my preferences."
1. "Absolutely not?"
2. "Yeah."
1. I hate how firmly she says it.
2. What's the big deal...
2. "What about you?"
1. "Why don't you like it?"
2. "I don't really enjoy that stuff either."
3. "Why?... Hm, maybe because you don't have much experience..."
1. "Wouldn't it change if we kept doing it?"
2. "..."
3. "..."
1. "We can't just keep putting it off..."
2. That's what I want to say...
1. "But... I'm not really sure."
2. "I don't know how to handle this."
3. "But isn't it fine even if we don't fix it?"
4. "It's not like we're fighting because of it."
1. Just because we don't fight doesn't mean there's no problem...
2. "Then, should we keep it platonic?"
3. "Or maybe... Try and adjust as we go."
1. "Just like how you hate it, I hate it too."
2. "Shouldn't we compromise?"
3. Why is it always just on me...
1. I'm tired of these situations where I don't have a choice.
1. Ever since she found out about my preferences,
2. Does she just not want to bring this up anymore?
1. It was with joohee when I realized what I liked.
1. Maybe if I tell her, she'll understand a little...
2. But more than that...
1. "What you'll think about my past..."
1. "That's the question. That would be the concern..."
2. The thought that suddenly came to me then...
1. Me then.
1. I brought it up because I thought there's something we should fix.
2. We were already struggling even just talking about skinship.
3. So what if I told her something I always thought I should someday.
4. What would...
1. What would happen then?
2. Unnie isn't being proactive either,
3. Our conversations and skinship keep fading away...
1. If this keeps up, we'll grow apart...
2. Or maybe even end things completely.
1. I don't know what the result will be, but
2. Rather than doing nothing and letting my first relationship end like this,
1. Wouldn't it be better to at least try to change something...
2. That's what I thought.
1. "Unnie... I have something to say."
2. "...okay."
1. "Go on."
2. "I... Actually, ..."
1. "Before dating you,"
2. "I slept with a lot of girls."
2. "What do you mean...?"
1. "I never dated"
1. "Them but..."
2. "I slept with my old crush many times, and that's how I figured out my"
1. "That's why I always worry about skinship."
5. "And I remember you once said you couldn't understand"
1. "People like that..."
2. "So I thought I had to tell you someday..."
3. "..."
4. "Did you lose feelings for me?"
3. "No, it's just..."
4. "Hearing that from you... I'm just a bit shocked."
1. "I don't know what to say..."
2. After that,
1. After that,
1. Unnie's awkward reaction lingered, and
2. Without much else said, we parted ways early.
1. A FEW DAYS LATER.
2. "Unnie, what are you doing?"
3. "Unnie, are you really busy?"
5. "Yeah, were you studying, Heesoo?"
6. "I did what I had to do too"
7. "Did you have lunch? I messaged so late after waking up"
9. "Yeah, I ate"
10. "Is something wrong??"
2. "Hm? No, why?"
3. IT'S ALWAYS LIKE THIS...
4. ALTHOUGH IT IS NOT SURPRISING,
5. I FEEL EVEN MORE DISTANCE.
6. Things have changed.
1. I've been trying to change it, messaging more,
1. But maybe unnie has no intention of meeting me halfway.
2. Even when I ask why, she just avoids the question....
1. Was it better if I never said anything....
2. I mustered up the courage to say it,
3. But now it feels like there's just more of a wall between us.
1. I feel lost...
1. But it's something that happened during the time I knew her.
1. "Isn't it better to tell her than to hide it? Or not?"
2. "..."
3. Thinking back, I only ever said things like "I like you" or "You're comfortable"
1. Or you're comfortable with unnie.
2. It was hard to bring up what was tough, what the problems were, and what to do.
1. Does unnie find that kind of talk burdensome?
1. Maybe it's just because we only text...
1. I should suggest meeting up soon.
2. If I can't even talk about the hard stuff,
1. Or tell her what kind of person I really am...
2. It feels like I'm always the one asking to meet....
1. What can I even talk about with unnie?
2. Just saying good things has its limits...
1. Has its limits.
2. We don't even know much about each other.
1. "I don't really know unnie either, since we never talk."
2. "Can you even call that love?"
3. "If we're just dating, always saying "I want to see you"."
1. "Then, it doesn't really have to be me, does it?"
1. "But before that..."
2. Do I even really love unnie?
1. "This isn't the kind of relationship I wanted...."