1. The feelings concealed by her sudden outburst...
2. "I hate you."
3. "Give my Onee-chan back...!"
Memuatkan…Memuatkan…
5. Even so...
8. I still
9. want to walk
10. by your side...
Memuatkan…Memuatkan…
1. "sob"
2. "sniffle"
3. "sob"
4. "breathe"
5. "I..."
6. "I haven't taken anything..."
7. "Give her back...?"
1. "You have no idea...!!"
2. "She said..."
3. "She said she would only push herself until summer break."
4. "You... You don't know any- thing..."
1. All through elementary and middle school, she could never go to school much.
2. So she wanted to be a normal high school girl, even if only for a short time.
3. But the first term was supposed to be her limit.
4. After that, she would spend summer break resting at home.
5. But she ended up going out every day.
6. Saying there was someone she wanted to go see...
1. But she always looked like she was having so much fun talking about her day.
2. So I decided that if she was happy, then I was happy.
3. I wanted her to spend more time with me, too, not just that "someone"...
4. I was worried about her.
5. But...
6. That one day, we'd be able to go places or play together like before.
7. I thought that maybe, just maybe, she would stay her cheerful self forever.
8. She always brushed it off.
9. "I'm fine. Never felt better. Don't worry about me..."
10. But I was wrong...
11. She was pushing herself way past her limit.
1. The night of the summer festival
2. I saw her collapse on her bed. That's how I found out.
3. She hid how bad it was getting.
4. From me, from Papa...
5. "What...?"
6. "..."
7. "After she got home...?"
8. "That night?"
9. "She... Collapsed?"
1. But she was back to normal the next day, so I thought nothing of it.
2. I noticed she wasn't quite her usual, cheerful self.
3. So she was actually pushing herself?
4. Way past her limit...
5. "You had no idea, did you!?"
1. "You didn't see how much pain she was in when she came home."
2. "She kept going out even though she wasn't feeling well."
3. "All because she pushed herself too hard."
4. "And now she's in the hospital..."
5. "Because she was going to see YOU, Hoshikawa Shizuku!"
6. "You... you're the one who..."
1. "This is all your fault!"
2. Now I know.
3. This entire time she was coming to hang out..
4. She was pushing herself.
5. "I... I'm sorry."
1. She never told me any of this...
2. "Kaori..."
3. Figures...
4. She's good at hiding it.
5. "I... I didn't even know she was sick."
6. "Not until she collapsed in front of me..."
1. Hiding everything so no one worries about her...
2. And puts everyone else before her-self.
3. She just smiles through the pain.
4. Even though deep down she's barely holding on.
5. I want her to lean on me.
6. But she insists on standing on her own.
1. "I... I feel the same way."
2. If only she would lean on me more...
3. No matter how much I tell her that she shouldn't push herself, that she doesn't have to put up a strong front, she just keeps on smiling.
4. The only concern she ever shows is for others, even though she's the one hurting the most.
5. "What...?"
1. It's not just me, then.
2. She can't be feeling well at all in her condition, but you'd never know it.
3. Even when she asks for a "Selfish" favor
4. It's never anything more than small errands like this.
5. She's like that to her family, too.
1. If only...
2. She'd let me share some of her burden...
3. They don't know when she'll be able to come home.
4. "They say they don't know."
1. And even though I know she's forcing it, there's nothing I can do...
2. But every time I go see her in the hospital, she's wearing her usual smile.
3. I... I'm scared...
4. She's all I have.
5. I can't stop wondering what's going to happen if she's suddenly... gone.
6. Or sleeping...
7. When I'm just watching TV...
8. Even when I'm not at the hospital...
1. What am I going to do without my Onee-chan?
2. I can get through anything.
3. But only if she's here with me.
1. "Huh...?"
2. "Don't touch me...!"
1. "Me too..."
1. "I..."
2. "I don't want Kaori to go anywhere..."
3. At first
4. She was just an annoying classmate.
5. Then she became my pretend girlfriend.
6. And now, she's one of the most important people in my life.
1. And she always puts the worries of others before her own, even when she's the one in real trouble.
2. And even though she's gentle and soft-spoken,
3. She knows how to be assertive and take the initiative.
4. She can also be a bit stubborn when it comes down to it.
5. "I... I can't..."
6. I don't want to think about the prospect of her being gone.
7. "It's too terrifying..."
1. She brought joy into my depressing life.
2. I was able to forgive myself, even if only a little, and apologize to ruri-chan.
3. I was able to really see my family for the first time, even though they were there the whole time.
1. I haven't been able to return a single favor yet.
2. It was my turn to give back to her.
3. It hasn't even been a full month, but she's given me so much.
4. It was all thanks to her.
5. I want to bring a smile to her face.
6. I want to make her wishes come true.
7. I want to make her happy with my writing.
1. We're just pretending, after all.
2. I want to be with her.
3. Not just make believe.
4. And not just for the novel.
5. Yes, that's it...
1. "I..."
2. "I have feelings for Kaori."
1. That's why I was so desperate to not let her go that one time.
2. I like her.
3. Because she has become such an irreplaceable figure in my life.
4. I like her.
5. That's why...
6. I love her.
1. That's why
2. It hurts so much.
3. "..."
1. "Are you sure...?"
3. "Huh...?"
4. "..."
1. "Couldn't stand seeing all her feelings focused on you."
2. "I... I couldn't stand it."
3. "But deep down I know."
4. "I know that she hasn't forgotten about me."
5. "And that I'd only be making her sad if I stopped you from seeing her."
6. "And that I have no right to be saying these things to you..."
8. "..."
10. "She'd only be disappointed, wouldn't she..."
11. "Well, if I brought this to her"
1. "You're so grown up."
2. "Huh? Are you making fun of me?"
3. "Some grown-up you are."
5. "No, of course not."
6. "I'm still a child myself."
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