2. If you are willing to accept a poor translation and the addition of pages to translate the content of a diary, you can choose to read my translation.
3. Otherwise, please wait for the official translation.
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1. About Screenshots: I choose to use screenshots and add pages for translation instead of directly making changes to Kaori's diary. One reason is that I want to present her original handwriting, and I am reluctant to make alterations. Another reason is that my handwriting is not neat.
2. Regarding the translation, I can grasp the emotions of the original text, but I sincerely apologize for not being able to present a perfect translation due to English not being my native language. I don't want to make excuses for myself; I accept all crticism. I am really sorry.
3. The reason I translated this chapter is simply because this idea suddenly popped into my mind, and I wanted to bid farewell to Kaori in my own way.
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1. "I'm coming."
2. "Oh, it is you two."
3. "Ah... It is nothing..."
4. "The fact is..."
5. "Thank you for taking care of shizuku."
6. "Hello."
7. "We have something to discuss with shizuku..."
8. "I am so sorry..."
1. She suddenly shut herself in, refusing to eat.
2. Recently, shizuku has been shutting herself in her room all day.
3. "Seri-chan...!"
4. "I'm sorry, but I must talk to her."
5. "Although you've come all this way to see her, it is too bad that..."
1. "Hoshikawa,"
2. "Excuse me."
1. "......"
2. "What are you freaking doing...!"
3. "Seri-chan...!"
1. "Why didn't you come to kaori's funeral!"
2. "You were definitely supposed to come...!"
3. "Hoshikawa...!!"
1. "......"
2. "You should have gone to bid kaori a proper farewell."
3. "... Shizuku-chan ..."
1. "Wait..."
2. "What are you..."
3. "Take a shower and brush your teeth!"
1. "We're heading to kaori's house right away."
2. "Eh..."
1. "Please go this way."
2. "Thanks for having us."
3. "Welcome. Make youself at home."
4. "Kaori,"
5. "Hoshikawa and the others have come to see you."
1. I still can't believe that kaori has left this world.
1. On the day I received the news of her passing,
2. I hurried to the hospital.
3. However...
1. I just fled back home.
2. I couldn't bring myself to approach her cold body
3. Even the kaori in my heart won't exist anymore.
4. In that way, to escape from reality, I locked myself alone in my room.
5. I won't accept it.
6. If I accept it,
1. "Eh..."
2. "Come over here, please"
3. "......?"
4. "Why...?"
5. This is kaori's room.
1. "My sister left it for you."
2. "Eh..."
3. "She left a letter for everyone, and this one is for you."
5. A letter and her diary...?
1. "As for the diary, it's because she wrote, "Give this to hoshikawa.""
2. "Who knows?"
3. "That's just how she wrote it, isn't it?"
4. "But why...?"
6. Why did she leave it for me?
8. "Alright, now I've given it to you."
9. "Ah... Yes..."
1. She started writing this since entering high school?
2. The two people she admired...?
3. "Eh..."
5. The translation of the diary entry is on the next page.
1. April 6th
Hoshikawa Shizuku-san is in my class!
Should I greet her tomorrow?
But she must have forgotten about me a long time ago.
2. July 16th
On the way back from the staff room,
I ran into Hoshikawa-san.
The unpublished ending of "Shoujo Shinjuu"
was written on a loose leaf.
What an incredible miracle!!
The two people I admired turned out to be the same person.
1. Ah...
2. It was when she picked up my novel...
3. When I asked about her plans for the next novel, she told me, "I don't want to write novels anymore."
4. It felt like the uncomfortable premonition I had when I finished "Shoujo shinjuu" surged up in my heart again.
5. It was she who once saved me, and now it is I who want to save her.
6. I want to bring hoshikawa-san back to life.
7. Many things about kaori that I didn't know were written in this diary.
1. 17th
Feeling restless, I went to school early in the morning, and Hoshikawa-san was already there.
Although I conveyed my impressions after reading her novel to the end, at first, she didn't believe it.
I hope at least a bit of it got through.
1. While I'm happy, if it's just like this, Hoshikawa-san will end up alone again after I'm gone.
2. It's not enough if it's just me. I want her to overcome the fear of connecting with others. Let me create such an opportunity somewhere.
3. My condition has probably worsened. I Have to stay in the hospital for observation again. How many times has it been already?
2. Ensure that both Shizuku and Shiori won't end up alone.
3. Establish a connection between Shizuku and Shiori!
5. "The sea?"
1. I hate myself for being pathetic and miserable.
2. It's painful. It's lonely. I want to see you. I really don't want to die without being able to see you again.
3. The novel is about to reach its ending. I'm looking forward to it.
1. August 26th
2. I'm looking forward to read her novel.
3. August 29th
4. Please! I hope my existence won't be a curse for Shizuku's entire life.
2. Kaori's true feelings.
3. Her painful sentences.
4. The side of Kaori unknown to me.
5. "......"
1. August 24th. My pathetic and miserable self, constantly causing trouble.
2. August 26th
3. I'm looking forward to read her novel.
4. August 29th
5. Please! I hope my existence won't be a curse for Shizuku's entire life.
3. To shizuku
4. I'm sorry for not being able to say it.
5. There are some things I couldn't tell you directly, so I left this letter for you.
1. You probably don't remember.
2. The first day you spoke to me.
3. "Just a little bit more..."
4. "Ah..."
5. "Thank you..."
6. You helped me get a book that was out of reach when I didn't know what to do.
7. In the fifth grade of elementary school, I met a popular student from the next class in the library.
8. "You want this?"
9. "Use a chair or something."
10. "Since you're short, don't bother reaching next time."
1. "Please calm down."
2. "I, I am so sorry."
3. "You look cuter without glasses."
4. "Eh."
5. Since then, I have admired you greatly.
6. "See ya"
7. "You would probably suit wearing contact lenses."
1. You were my hero as an elementary school student.
2. At that time, I really wanted to become someone like you.
3. I decided to stop wearing glasses and start wearing contact lenses.
4. And one more thing.
5. Our connection doesn't even qualify as an acquaintance.
6. I'm sure I'm not someone you remember.
7. At that time, I caused a lot of trouble for my father and shiori.
8. In the winter of my third year in junior high,
9. I kept going in and out of the hospital.
10. I realized that I didn't have much time left to live, so I became reckless and gave up on myself.
1. The content of the novel seemed to be telling me, "You are not alone."
2. It was a novel written by someone whose identity I didn't even know.
3. What lifted me up in that state was a novel.
4. It's not an exaggeration to say that this novel saved me.
5. "......!"
6. When this novel stopped updating, I cried the whole night. It truly is my favorite and the most important novel for me.
7. The name of that novel is "Shoujo shinjuu."
1. As shiori's "Kaori" became more significant, I became increasingly afraid.
2. I couldn't say it at first because I was afraid that you might get scared.
3. Every time such a thought crossed my mind, my timidity delayed what I wanted to say.
4. I wonder if "Kaori" will become "Just a fan" for you,
5. So, you see, shizuku is my savior.
6. I'm sorry I couldn't tell you until now.
1. "Thank you."
2. Without shizuku, I couldn't have survived until now.
3. However,
4. Just expressing gratitude to you is not enough at all.
5. You far exceeded my modest plans,
6. And made my dream come true.
7. Throughout this entire summer, I've been searching for ways to repay you.
1. I wanted to become the heroine of a story
2. I hope one day I can also be grateful for having lived some time on this earth.
3. Who leaves something behind for someone.
4. All these wishes of mine have come true because of you.
5. As for my thoughts... They're too long to write here, so I put them on another piece of paper.
6. Thank you for the best love letter.
7. I've read your novel until the end.
1. I'm sorry for causing you to worry.
2. I'm sorry for making you sad.
3. I'm sorry for saying so many weak words.
4. Thank you for listening to my feelings.
5. I'm sorry for keeping so many secrets.
6. I'm glad I could convey it even in this way.
7. I can't continue living with you in this world. I'm sorry.
8. I'm sorry, I can't grow morning glories together with you.
1. "But you know,"
2. "I had a really enjoyable summer."
1. Even though our relationship was just pretend,
2. -sometimes I can became your support,
3. The time we spent together
4. Sometimes you supported my fragility-
5. I always, always felt very happy.
6. There's one more thing I've never told you.
7. Thank you for everything you've done for me.
1. I wanted to be your real girlfriend.
1. Please allow me to convey these feelings to you.
2. I'm sorry,
3. But if I told you, you might spend your entire life yearning for me, never able to escape the shadow of my death. So, I've never spoken those words.
4. At the end of this letter, I have some selfish requests.
5. However, if you won't forget about me, I would be happy.
6. You must become happy, and live on until you become an old granny.
7. Don't let my death lead you to a downward spiral.
1. These are kaori's thoughts on the novel shizuku wrote. The middle part is unclear, but she expressed her gratitude at the end.
2. Shizuku, if my diary can be of any use when you feel like writing another novel, please feel free to use it.
3. I've already told shiori to give it to you in advance.
4. "It's really long..."
1. Kaori
2. Kaori
3. Kaori
1. There's no way I could forget.
2. I won't forget.
3. Her warmth.
4. Her scent,
5. Her figure,
6. Everything we experienced together,
7. Because kaori was there, I exist in here.
1. Because of all this, I...
1. I've been ignored the voices of others, because I'm afraid I'll end up hurting them.
2. I used to think that I shouldn't hurt others, so I believed it would be better not to get involved with anyone.
3. "Shizuku."
4. I've also neglected my family, who worries about me.
5. "I'm going."
6. "Wow, you're so early. Are you leaving already?"
7. "Yeah."
1. I've thought that it would be better if someone like me disappeared from this world.
2. I have to face reality properly.
3. But now,
1. "Well..."
1. "Good... Good morning."
2. Step by step,
3. I want to become the shizuku that kaori admired.
4. I will become the proof that you once lived in this world.
1. The summer she were there
2. I want to believe it was a happy story.