1. "You want breakfast?"
2. "Come on...you should at least eat a little before you go to school."
1. "!"
1. "..."
2. "...doyeon. I have something to say."
3. "?"
1. "Did you know..."
2. "...that my husband and I are separated right now?"
1. "I debated whether I should tell you..."
1. "...but I don't think I can be a good, responsible adult after all."
2. "Otherwise I wouldn't have told you at such an iffy timing."
3. "I don't know what to think of him anymore."
1. "I'm sure it would've sounded more romantic if I said this was all because of you but...honestly, it isn't."
2. I don't know if it's because I still love him that I'm so resentful...
3. ...or if this is everything that's left because everything's gone south.
1. "But I just know that I feel so much better now that I don't have to sleep with him anymore."
2. "...I just..."
3. "...thought that I'd be hurting you more by not telling you the truth."
1. "I know it's selfish, but I couldn't stand the thought of that happening."
2. "...I'm sorry."
1. So what do we do now? What decision should we make?
2. It would've been great if our problem was one in which we could just sincerely talk things over and clear up any misunderstandings.
1. But as luck would have it, life isn't so simple.
2. It's like how "I love you" isn't a magic word to make everything better...
1. ...I just want...
2. ...to savor this moment...
3. My memories begin at the orphanage.
1. According to the records, I was taken to the orphanage right after I was born, following my parents' fatal car accident.
1. Car accident.
2. There weren't any relatives who could claim me, so I was deemed a "True orphan."
3. Aka no one would come looking for me.
4. My home was an old building
1. Decorated in grey cement and yellow crayon drawings.
2. The closest thing I had to family were the kids who would suddenly show up and disappear just as quickly.
3. Sometimes I'd think of scenarios where I was left in the orphanage because of my single mother who couldn't raise her child alone.
4. Our
1. I thought that would be better than my situation...
2. But at one point, I realized that they were just pointless details.
1. Because the cold hard fact was that I was an oprhan who'd never once had parents to call her own.
2. Me being a "True orphan" was like a manual explaining that I'm already a broken product.
1. And that orphanage... It was just full of desperation.
2. The children were all starved of affection.
1. Of affection.
2. They quenched their thirst with praise from the nuns and the weekly visits from volunteers.
1. But funny enough, we could never find that comfort in each other.
2. That must've meant we needed adults.
3. ...I wasn't much different...
1. ...but I was a smart kid.
2. "Oh my! Have you been watering the flowers all this time, doyeon?"
3. "The teachers can handle it!"
4. "The other kids like plucking"
1. "Them to give to the teachers."
2. "Oh, you're so sweet!"
3. "Haha, I see!"
4. "You're so kind, doyeon!"
5. I eventually came to find that although we needed the adults,
1. Needed the assets, they needed me too.
2. In retrospect, what seemed like a child's survival instinct was really a deeper lesson on how to build relationships.
4. "Don't mention it!"
5. Anyway...
1. ...emotions are hard to navigate, but the concept of "Action and reaction" is pretty straightforward.
2. "Guys, don't fight!"
3. "Why don't I just be the referee? Hm?"
4. I just needed to be a good girl.
5. That meant a child who listened to the adults, didn't get into fights, and always took care of the other kids.
6. I'd have to sweep the yard and wipe the blackboard without anyone telling me to.
7. "If only everyone was as nice and cute as you, doyeon! Then us teachers would have an..."
1. "Would have an easier time!"
2. "You think I'm cute?"
3. "Goodness! Look at you, being so coy!"
4. Being a child who didn't have any sort of issue in the facility was like shining a
1. Spotlight on them.
2. If the adults trusted you, the other children would just naturally follow along.
3. I didn't know that...
4. ... Being a "Good girl" is similar to being an "Adult."
5. Is there
1. Anything better than the feeling of being needed by someone?
2. But... There was one downside to all this...
1. Even if adults like "Good girls," they won't adopt "Adults."
2. Why would the couples adopt a child who seems like she doesn't need them?
1. "You'll find your family soon, doyeon. I promise."
2. "Okay?"
3. At the end of the day, I was a child who'd come up with a pathetic defense mechanism.
4. I wish I would've
1. I would've noticed earlier.
2. "..."
3. "Haa..."
4. People can't stand desperate children.
1. That might've been why the director hated me.
2. Because he couldn't stand me.
3. When I came to my senses, all I had left were these useless tricks and these defects I'd accepted as part of me.
1. ... Ah, I'm so bored.
2. I'm hungry, too.
3. The day sure is boring when I don't have anything to do.
1. "Hahaha!"
2. "Hahaha!"
1. "..."
1. I wasn't bored. I was lonely.
2. The day wasn't dull. I was just worn out.
1. How was a child supposed to know the difference?
2. I didn't want to be weighed down by this responsibility.
1. I just wanted to be loved.
2. "...?"
3. I just wanted one person in this world to choose me.
1. "Hello."
2. "I just needed some help finding my way..."
