1. Polite, well-mannered, everything I was supposed to be.
2. Selling myself at the auction was the craziest thing I've ever done, and even that wasn't for me.
3. Dammit, mom.
4. I had impossible conversations with myself this afternoon, trying to figure out what she wants from me.
5. Sky-diving? Bungee-jumping? What?
6. And then it hits me.
7. She never wanted me to do something crazy just for the adrenalin rush. All she wanted was for me to be happy.
8. I'm getting there!
9. But...
10. God, I feel like I'm losing it.
11. I check the clock. One more hour until kir is home.
12. One hour to come up with something to do tonight to prove to myself that I can do this whole living life to the fullest thing.
