My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness
अध्याय 4
लोड हो रहा है…लोड हो रहा है…
1. Finally, the day came.
2. I couldn't sleep, and woke up early.
3. "Maybe I should've gone with something a little more feminine... (I don't have anything)"
4. I'd already pretty much figured out what I was going to wear.
11. I'd have to say I agree with them on that.
16. "Like this?"
18. I learned afterwards that yeah, men's clothes and a lack of make-up are kinda frowned upon (amongst girls who like girls).
लोड हो रहा है…लोड हो रहा है…
1. I'd only just resolved to go, but immediately felt like I'd already dug myself into a deep and inescapable hole.
2. I'd given up on living a real life for such a long time, I didn't have any clothes.
3. In the end, worst came to worst and I borrowed money from my mother to pay the prostitute.
4. "Lend me 10,000 yen...?"
5. "...Mum,"
6. Also the temporary income I'd been relying on turned out to be less than I'd thought...
7. It's not like I'm going out to have fun. This is money for something important... Something I have to go and do... I thought to myself.
9. But I honestly didn't feel so guilty about it.
10. And to venture into these places I'd always thought were wrong, this was what I had to do.
11. To affirm all these things I'd been unable to affirm about myself...
