章节 19
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1. "Let's break up."
2. "This pretend love..."
3. "Let's end it."
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1. wanted to know...
2. The secret she
3. A sudden farewell
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1. "... Huh ...?"
2. "What...?"
3. "...I think ending it here would be the cleanest way to do it."
1. "I wouldn't want to go on dates in a hospital, so..."
2. "This started out as me forcing you to go out with me, anyways."
3. "I can't go see you everyday anymore,"
4. "and I would feel bad if you always had to come to me..."
5. "...I'm freeing you!"
1. "I'm returning it now. Your novel."
2. "Sorry."
3. "I said I would give it back, but ended up holding onto it this whole time..."
1. "It was a short time,"
2. "but thank you for every- thing."
1. It's over?
2. This suddenly?
3. Wasn't it until the end of summer break?
4. What's going on?
5. Eh?
1. Did she grow to hate me after that?
2. Or did she get sick of me after what happened yesterday?
3. Was it her sickness?
4. Was I not supposed to bring it up?
5. Did I say something I shouldn't have?
6. Did I hurt someone without realizing again?
7. But,
8. I don't know the reason.
1. Kaori is serious.
1. "No."
1. "Why are you saying that all of a sudden...?"
2. "Why...?"
3. "Don't try to end this all on your own...!"
1. "...I can just be like, "Okay, done" without even knowing what the heck is going on...!?"
2. "...You think..."
3. "From here on, you can use your time for yourself..."
4. "But... look, it'd be a waste to use your whole summer break on just me, right?"
1. "Don't give me that crap!!"
2. "...Why?"
1. "Why don't you say what you're really thinking?"
2. "so why are you suddenly saying the exact opposite things now?"
3. "You always tried so hard to stand with me,"
4. "Don't..."
5. "But I can't know anything if you hide it."
6. "I want to know the real you."
1. "Don't try to end this all on your own...!"
2. "..."
3. Why?
1. Kaori always
2. But I can't get inside hers.
3. She won't let me step in.
4. comes all the way inside my heart.
5. If I take the novel from her now,
6. it'll all end.
1. The thing that connects us will disappear.
2. It'd be best to end it here...
3. "Listen to me...!"
1. "I'm going to die."
2. "They..."
1. "They said..."
2. "that I might not leave the hospital again..."
1. ...Die?
2. Kaori will...?
3. "...Bu- But..."
1. "I came here after going to a lot of other places."
2. "What if you had another hospital look at you...?"
3. "The doctor here is well-known."
4. "I've been diagnosed many times, so I don't think so."
5. "...The diagnosis might be wrong..."
6. "It's a miracle I was able to be a high school girl for a term."
7. "This is the result of it "somehow" working out."
8. "M-Medicine is really advanced nowadays."
9. "Even if you can't leave right away, I'm sure that somehow..."
10. "Shizuku."
11. "But..."
12. "..."
1. "There won't be any miracles for me."
2. "...I'm at my limit already."
3. "And here I am."
4. "I've been testing this and that, seeing if it could work out somehow."
5. "Since long before I met you,"
1. In the not-too-distant future,
2. I will leave this world.
3. "Before either of us gets any more hurt."
4. "So let's break up."
5. "Okay?"
6. "It can't work out somehow?"
1. Why couldn't I notice anything until now?
2. How much has she suffered
3. Wasn't there something I could've noticed before she had to say this?
4. without me knowing?
5. How many times before
6. has she collapsed in pain like that?
7. ""Before either of us gets hurt any more.""
8. Kaori
1. is preparing for the day she leaves.
2. If this was just a novel,
3. and I was just a reader,
4. I might have accepted Kaori's words.
5. "..."
6. But,
1. "No matter how many reasons you give me,"
2. "I can't...!"
3. "No...!"
4. "I want to stay with you, kaori..!"
5. "I don't want to leave you."
6. "Why can't you get it!?"
7. "...Why?"
1. "I can't do anything for you anymore."
2. "I-"
3. "I can't be there for you when you're having a rough time."
4. "I can't raise those morning glories together,"
5. "I can't go on dates, I can't spend time in your room with you,"
6. "There's nothing left I can give you...!"
1. "Even if you come to the hospital every day, I can't do anything for you."
2. "I'll just be a burden to you."
3. "You'd be better off without me..."
4. Kaori
1. came to see me every day with those thoughts running through her mind.
2. I never understood Kaori.
3. So that's why she would always go on outings with me,
4. and give me things?
1. But in reality,
2. I thought she was someone who was always bursting with confidence, always smiling.
3. She was clinging on to that childish logic
4. I thought she would just come to see me on a whim.
5. when she came to see me.
6. "...I"
1. "The time we spend together."
2. "...I love it."
3. "I don't want to be with you because I want to get something."
4. "I want to support you, too."
5. "I don't care where we are or what we're doing."
6. "Just let me be with you."
7. "Don't go on deciding my own thoughts for me."
1. "I just want to be together. Isn't that reason enough...?"
2. "...No,"
3. "We can't."
1. "...that's not...!"
2. "So the truth is,"
3. "...I know that pain."
4. "The person left behind"
5. "has to live on with the memories. It'll only lead to suffering."
6. "I started this pretend love because I wanted you to live."
7. "Once summer ended,"
8. "I was planning on quietly disappearing from your life."
9. "I didn't want to put the burden of this sickness on you..."
10. "...I wanted to not leave anything behind when I left."
11. "I failed."
12. "I'm sorry."
1. "for being with you, even though I knew I'd hurt you..."
2. "And I'm really sorry"
3. What should I do?
4. What can only Kaori do...
5. What can I do for her?
6. What can I do to stay by her side?
7. "please..."
8. "In that case,"
1. I can't let go of her hands right now.
2. "I want something only you can give me."
3. Thats the one thing I know for certain.
4. "There is."
5. "...There's no such thing..."
6. "Huh...?"
1. "What...?"
2. "I'm going to write one."
3. "I'll write a novel about all that we've done and bring it here every day."
4. "A romance novel about us."
5. "So tell me what you think of it."
1. "The story will belong to just the two of us."
2. "So I want you to read it, and you only."
3. "I want to hear"
4. "your opinions on it."
1. "But..."
2. Don't stop.
3. Keep writing.
1. "Please..."
2. If you become any more important to me,
3. But,
4. it'll only hurt more when it comes time to say goodbye. I know that.
5. it's too late.
1. You had already
2. become someone I can't let go of long ago.
3. "...My hand hurts, Shizuku."
4. "Ah, sorry..."
1. "Your novel."
2. "I look forward to reading it."
1. "...Yeah."
2. If I left you alone,
3. it seemed as if you might up and disappear.
4. That's how fleeting an existence you were.
1. So before I knew it, I had sealed our relationship
2. with a promise half-resembling a threat.
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