1. My chest is loud with anxiety and fear.
2. If no one is there...
3. If no one is there, I can just mail her the letter.
4. My breath gets shallower every-time we pass another station.
5. If she comes,
6. then I'll give her the letter and apologize.
8. If she rejects me,
9. ...If I make her scared,
10. then I have no choice but to accept it. After all, I did terrible things to her.
11. "...Will she even come in the first place?"